Do you ever feel like your waiting for your life to begin?

We're almost halfway through the year. A whole new year of opputunities, events and a new start. So why do I still feel as if life hasn't really begun yet? Im 15 years old and nothing remotley mind blowing has ever happened to me. Just nothing. Im a normal girl. In a normal town. With a normal life. What ever happened to love?
I seem to be living in my writing. Letting my characters or even me if im the character experience all the stuff I want to do. It's all fantasy. Maybe it's good that I can do that. Perhaps thats why I like writing. However, it would be alot better if it were real. If i actully got the cute guy/girl and experienced what love was. Until then writing about it is all I have, and I think i secretly like it that way, it can be anything and isn't influenced, just my imagination.
I think it's time I got pro-active. Instead of thinking about doing things, Im going to make it happen. If I want to go somewhere, I'll organise it. If i want something I'll work for it. It'll be intresting seeing if i actully stick to it, but it's a start. I picked up a leaflet I saw for local music-zine. They're looking for music journalists so Im going email in. I'll probbably get ingored because im young and unexperienced but it's worth a try.
In other news, I got a cute vintagey red top and a sophis blue cardi. There is nothing quite like a shopping trip...
Over and out folks. x